I remember this movie from the beginning of the millennium (2003) where Bob Harris, Charlotte and other characters where facing disillusion and existential crisis.
Well in some ways my last few years could have been described by that title.
What to say? when you’re lost and full of doubt and no sparkle of inspiration, you start to have a tasteless vision of life where excess of all kinds look to be the only escape to still have some “sort” of dreams and small bits of desires.
Love, teared you appart, experiences made you get a bitter taste at the back of your mouth and exchanges look to always have the same construct where you already know the construct and the finality. For someone like me I felt no interest to explore those as to vibrate and create I need to feel the surprise or the unexpected, exploring others universes and sharing deep energies.
Anyways long thing short, this message is not a closure, but an introduction for the next one, as sometimes life can reward us for our patience; and this time I will be all-in as I already lost to much time of my life and now need to, like the phoenix, rebirth from my ashes.
I really hope the future will help me get out of this chrysalid I have been trapped in for a some years and hope the wonderful creature / butterfly I am will be able to open and expose her beautiful wings soon…
Stay tuned !
