Lately I feel a little bit lost as a mix of various emotions as an unexpected possibilities appeared like an angel into my realm…. Is that a dream? when will I wake up…. and the main question, where will it go !
I already checked : it’s not a dream !! and after all I’m sick of dreams….
To be honest with all of you, and even more for the ones that sent me so nice messages showing they got the big picture, potential, complexity, intensity but also motivation and investment I put into this project; making it would be self sustainable, as for me it was one of the condition to start it securely… (after all I give my life into it and prefer to get some sort of security and roadmap of the project….)
So yes, at the beginning of this summer, I met THE person. the RIGHT one. the ONE you recognize at first sight and have the perfect contact and sensation. and the best here, it worked on us both in a reciprocal way, thing that I never seen before as it was perfectly balanced.
She made me realize so many things that I will never be able to thank her enough for the she did and will I’m nearly certain do to help me find my true self back to create, grow, glow and realize my dreams; as I will de my best to create the same for her within the long years we have in front of us.
Why I say we will get a long path, just for one reason : she understood me and branded deep in my skin her perfect initials, making me hers by that gesture.
You can’t imagine how proud I am to wear the marks I wear on my body and all were linked to some promesse, that will for sure respect as long the branding stay visible.
One she maid is between my ass-check and I already dream of it to be used for a special ‘trans-stanp” we discussed together, as it will highlight her initials and add some details of my condition and to never forget my engagement.
Anyway for that part the future will tell us….
Yes I know I met the right person to understand and help me move forward, even if after all this time it’s sometimes complicated to accept and not feeling to old for some points 🙁
But after all we only have one life and well my goals to realize didn’t changed since my teen-age (like the more marked androgynie, some feminines aspects also (I won’t make you discover here that I love hard waist cinching…) and the biggest part….
my breast implants, that basically I would had preferred to see the size decided by a pool where all you visitors had been able to participate ! that way the artistic and interactive experience. Imagine a simple vote, clicking a button and participate to create the ultimate-doll. This is literally what I always wanted, as if you seen some other articles I may not been able to decide some things in my past life… I only discovered my news maybe when taking up at the end of the surgery….
I already see some of the comments that I will get but my only answer is that I have always felt better inn my life when my breast were grown and got depress when they disapear. addition to this I use then as a really good test on peoples…. and you want to know the funniest part, they get always passionated and touched by my story of life.
So someone appeared in my life and she did not only made my depression stop in the minute I saw Her, she also gave me back some of my creative powers back and a place aloud her as her “Kiska” that she branded to ensure that I will remember it signification as long as I can see it !
She is a nice and fabulous person, and I think she is one of the rare to see through the glass and know some things have to happen to ensure me to become the butterfly or who know the phoenix I need to be .
She know I’m not perfect, this part is certain, but I will always show you my motivation and respect of engagements & or contracts. (the marks let me no choices here)
If all this news adventure start I’m sure she will love to me to tell and show my adventures, and I hope she will post from her Goddess website the other aspects those plays/sessions/lifestyle (up for her to decide) and I’m sure she will become one of the best (and human) Goddess….
Except that She also help me get my slim body back and I start to feel “presentable” again thing that makes me really happy. I hope this time I will be able to wear tons of latex designs I never been able to(even to try) in the past !
To finish, I just need to add that all this is still a fragile balance, but I think we will do our best to make it work, as in some ways I think often to close a page of my life here
I will just end this post by a little sentence that tell everything :
We always understand life the day we meet the one we love and that she love us in return…
life is short, and this is maybe the most beautiful gift I got
Or like in Alice, was it a dream? …. to be continued
